Every once in a while I'll get pretty personal in one of my blog posts, and I think it's time for me to do it again. I've put it out there in the past that I suffer from Depression/Anxiety. Though it's not a daily struggle for me, like it is for some of you, I do still deal with it from time to time. Maybe that's why I'm writing this today.
If you know what it's like to be in a room full of people and still feel completely alone, then you understand. If you can't really concentrate at the task you're trying to accomplish, then you understand. If you worry about things that you know you can't control but you worry anyway, then you understand.
I'm not sure what sparked this latest battle for me and I don't know how long it will last, but the past couple days I have been off and I couldn't figure out why. Then it dawned on me, that I had slipped back into a spell of depression. It's not a constant for me but that doesn't make it any easier. As I write this, I would much rather just be home in my bed sleeping then doing anything else. I'm abnormally quite while at my desk and not really in the mood to talk to anyone about anything.
The worst part about dealing with something like this is that nobody can really help. Sure a Dr can with medication but I'm not looking to go that route. I've concurred this in the past w/o taking pills and I will do it again. I've said it in the past in a blog post and to people that I know, that with something like depression, it's something that you have to WANT to beat. You need to focus on the positives in your life and try to forget the things that you feel are negatives. Right now, if you're dealing with this like I am, you're focusing on the bad and not the good. Try your best to get the bad out of your mind. Is it easy? HELL NO! But it's something that you need to do. Now don't get me wrong here, I'm not saying that I have the cure for depression or anything like that, all I'm offering up is what's worked for me in the past and what I will do to beat this again this time. You need to find your own solution for the problem. Know that if you suffer in silence, as many do, you are not weak or wrong. You are NOT different and there is nothing wrong with you. Generally speaking those of us that suffer from this are some of the strongest people there are. We try so hard to be strong always that we are afraid to show weakness.
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