Forgive me for getting ultra personal in this post but I wanted to share some thoughts that were bouncing around in my head today. You may or may not know this but I've been married 2x and have 2 daughters with different mothers. Now, although my oldest daughter doesn't remember her life when I lived with her, my youngest daughter does. That doesn't make it any easier for my oldest but she is way more use to not living with me that my youngest.
One of the hardest things to deal with as a parent is not being able to see your child on a daily basis. It's is extremely difficult to not be able to kiss them good night or see their smiling face in the morning as they get up and get ready for school. Same goes for seeing them every night for dinner or helping with homework. Unfortunately this is what I have to deal with. Mind you, my youngest spends much more time with me than my oldest does but as she gets older that might change as well. I totally understand that as they grow up they want to spend time with friends and have a bunch of things going on in their lives. But understanding that and being okay with it are 2 different things. It's something that as a parent you have to come to terms with.
One thing that I would like to do is apologize to my girls. It was never the plan for either of them to deal with living in split house holds but that's how things worked out. I've told my youngest that a few times as she is still trying to process having to go house to house but how do you explain that to a 10 year old? She may understand but that doesn't make it any easier for her to process.
I'd love to say that there's a point to all of this but honestly these were just some thoughts that I had bouncing around as I stated at the start of this post. Maybe it's my way of just getting it out. Maybe I'm writing this to let others know that they're not the only one dealing with parent problems. Maybe it's to let people who have a "normal" parenting situation what it's like when Mommy and Daddy live in two different homes.
Either way, there it is. A little insight into my day to day dealings and thoughts.