It's been nearly 2 months since a huge group of people had their hearts ripped out. On 12/30/18 we lost a dear friend/father/Uncle/husband. We were not given the chance to say goodbye or the opportunity to prepare for this giant hole that was left. Some are still dealing with the sadness. Some are angry that you are gone. All are confused.
Now, the saying is that time heals all wounds but I don't think that will ever be the case in this situation. You are though of every single day that passes. Many, if not all, of us are still trying to wrap our heads around what happened on the tragic day. Unfortunately, none of us will ever be able to.
Now, obviously, I cannot speak on everyone's behalf, only mine. Since we've lost Dan I have watched so many try to be strong for those around them. I have seen my youngest daughter break down in tears simply because you are not here. I have seen a group of guys become closer than we thought imaginable because we lost our bro. I find myself sitting and drifting off, thinking about why. Thinking about times that we spent together and the laughs we shared.
Our dance "family" is preparing for our first competition without you with us. Needless to say, this one is going to be tough. We have never done this without you and now we are forced to. Our kids will be thinking of you every second that they are on stage that weekend. There will be many tears shed because you are not physically there with us. Personally, I will take comfort in knowing that you have the best seat in the house. You will be cheering louder that you ever have as you watch your girls dance their hearts out in your memory.
As we all push forward with our lives, allow me to try and give you all some comfort. Dan is always with us. He is in our hearts. He is in our memories. He is keeping an eye on us all. I know that none of this makes any sense to us but we must try to remember that there is a reason that we are all faced with this pain and heartache. I'm certainly not going to pretend that I know what that reason is but please know that there is a reason for it.
We all have our favorite memories of Dan. We all miss him dearly. As each day comes and goes, let's all try to do our best to honor him the best way we can. Love a little harder. Be a little kinder. Give someone a hug. Smile at someone. Be better than you were yesterday.